a little memories of angel ..

oke pada dasar na gw isenk bkin ini --"
krna lg kpikiran aja ..
d mulai dri awaalll ..
awal gw ktmu cc angel * walau dy lebi muda dri pd gw 2 taun --"
gw kira gga bkal dked krna cmn skdr 1 party aja :) .
n berlanjudd ..
lama" gw dked sama dy .. tp kdg" yh rasa benci muncul d hati gw .
soal na dy tu qlu uda mw sesuatu hrus d kabulin .. qlu nda marah --"
gw suka keki sama dy ..
skrng gw nyesel .
inget dy uda gga ada ..
untuk slama na ninggalin gw ..
pdhl dy lebih muda 2 taun dri pd gw ..
tp gga tw napa ,,
enak ngum ma dy ..
dy bsa ngerti gw ..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa . gw nyesel perna benci ma dyaa .
knp gw tu bego bgt si ?
knp gw gga smped minta maap ma dy ?
knp gw perna benci ma dy ?
knppppp gw tu sangad amad bgt begoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo .
qlu d pikir" ..
qlu bkn krna fb .. gw gga tw dy uda gga adaa . gw sayank bgt ma dy .. kea ade gw ndiri ..
knp iah .. knp org kea dy hrus d pnggil scpet itu ? knp gga gw yg bego ..
knp gga gw yg gga gunaa .. knp gga gw yg gga bsa apa" ?
knp anak yg puna msa dpn lebih indah yg hrus d panggil dluan ..
knp gga gw yg gga puna apa pun yg bsa d banggain yg gga mattiiii ?
napa ? emg gw puna apaan d bumi ? gw mw ngum ma sapa ? sapa yg mw dnger gw ? sapa yg bsa ngerti gw ? sapa yg bsa bebasin gw dri smua kegilaan ini ?
huftt ..
*btw knp melencong ini topik --"
ok back to angel .
angell ,, if u know .. i love u so much :) . u're like my sister .. i feel like somebody when with u .. :))
gw ingedd . pas jalan pertama x n trkhir ma dy .. :)
dy lucuu . tembeemm . hwhw .
n ortu na sayank bgt ma dy .. :)) .
angel ( margaret ) . km uda d berikan hdup yg indah .. :) . smua orang sayank ma km .. aku seneng bgt smped puna tmen kea km .. km salah satu org yg bkin hdup ku brubah .. aku bener" sneng bsa kenal ma km .. walau cmn lwt gemm . mungkin qlu org mkir gem cmn tmen skdr tmen .. tp aku anggep km lebih dri tmen dri gem .. u're like my best friend :) . bahagia iah d sana .. aku slalu akan merindukan mu . xoxo . lavv u . :)) * NB : ini bkn acara lesbong --"

back into normal :DD

stlah gw baca post" gw yg lama --"
okeh stres bgt liad na
*pdhl ndiri yg nulis ==" *
qlo uda stres . gw suka gga jelas n marah" ndiri
kdg jelekin diri ndiri
kdg iri ma orang
emg uda dri dasar si gw gni ==
mumpung lg gga stres jd nulis hal" normal aja dlu :)
i just try to be a better person .. :DD .
i know i'm not perfect .. but i love my unperfect :DD
* inggris autis abis . ==" *
i love my life . :)
i know everyday every where i always dreaming . how if i die ?
but now .
i realize .. my life is just like a little story n never have a " THE END "
sok inggris pdhl ancur abis inggris na . AH BODO yg pnting ngerti :p
n thx to all my friend :)
u give me a life lessons .
n too manda . thanks . u always make me have a fun . * my english is so .. ==" * . u always there when i have a problem with STEVEN =3= . haha . n now i realize . u'r friend just not me . u hv someone . i dun't have a power to judge u . thanks . :) . i just feel u don't need me anymore when u already have another friend . :DD
n too Hitomi sist ( cc windy ) . thanks sist . u give me a strength when i feel down . :) . u always ask me if i have a problem with my life . thanks sist ! :DD
n too Heaven ( baka inu ) . thanks was given a lesson for me. I am very happy to have friends like you. when I needed someone you were always there for me. thanks a lot. I'll never forget you even though we met via Internet :)
n too my sweet heart . thanks for everything. I was very lucky to have someone like you. pardon me for what I do to you
honestly i don't want to be like that . I promise I will not make you mad again. and I will try to understand you . thanks for everything. i love you. I love you. I really love you :DD
n thank's for all my friend at school ..
n to many people make my life change :)
n friend via internet
n CONFERENCE TEAM ! JIAYOU JIAYOU ! xD
n all ..
n special thanks to margaret setyawan . :) . RIP . thanks already be a part of my life . i really miss you angel . :) .

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel

lgu ini gw dksi tau ma tmen gw :) . n smpe skrng gw nda au np suka ma ni lgu :)
soal na gw jrg bgt tau lgu" inggris si ==" . maklum katro . wkakawkawk

When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

Lagu Bokura ga ita :DD .

Izumi katou - suki dakara

Jaa mata ne te wo futta
Ushiro sugata anna ni mou
Yuugure no hitonami ni yurenagara chiisaku naru

Anata ga kureta kotoba wo hitotsuzutsu
Omoidashi me wo tojita
Shiawasena omoi dake koko ni aru hazu nano ni
Fuan ni naru doushite nano kokoro ga furueteru no

Tsutaetai motto sou afureteru kono kimochi
Suki dakara suki dakara zettai suki dakara

Furimuite kakedashite
Oikakete ikitai kedo
Yuugure no sabishisa ga sonna yuuki nomikonda

Anata no egao no naka ni watashi wa iru
Sukoshi hanareta dakede
Maigoi na natta youna kodomo mitai nakidashisou
Sunao nara konna omoi shinakutemo sumu no ni na

Karappo no watashi dake koko ni ite sakenderu
Suki dakara suki dakara zettai suki dakara

English translation

See you later, we waved our hands
the figure of your back is already like that,
swaying, it becomes small in the evening wave of people

The words you gave me, one by one
remembering them, I closed my eyes
even though only the happy thoughts should be here
I become uneasy, I wonder why my heart quivers

I want to tell you more, these feelings overflowing like that
because I love you, because I love you
because I absolutely love you

Turning around and running off
I want to go and chase after you but
the loneliness of evening swallowed that kind of courage

Within your smiling face, I am there
just a little bit separated
it’s like I’ve become a lost child, about to cry
if I were docile, I could live even without these kind of feelings

Only an empty me exists here, crying out
because I love you, because I love you
because I absolutely love you

Aishiteru - Bokura Ga Ita

kanashikute kanashikute nakida shisou ni naru
tada tsuyoiku nari tai dake namida wa nagasenai

taisetsu na anata no hitomi ni
watashi wa utsutteru nokana
komorebi sashikomu madobe ni wa
doushite yasashiku nareru n da rou

kokoro kaku shite kodou kaku shite
itsumo no you ni
wakariaenai tsurasa ga tomaranai

waraitai waraitai kokoro no mannaka de
anata ni wa buchiake you
tsuyogaru watashi yowaki na watashi
kinou no hanashi dou demo ii koto mo zenbu
aishiteru kore kara mo zutto
ude wo kunde aruite ikou Yeah!

ki setsu wa watashi dake nokoshite
taisetsu na hito tsurete yuku n da ne

kimi wo saga shite kimi wo saga shite
donna toki demo kimi wo sagashiteiru kedo
mitsu kara no sore wa kimi na no?

kanashikute kanashikute nakida shisou ni naru
dore dake no omoi nara dakishimete kureru no?

ah waraitai waraitai
nani mo kamo nage sutete
anata ni wa buchiake you
kinou no hanashi ashita no hanashi
futari no mirai kakae kirenai hodo zenbu
yakusoku wa shinakute mo ii yo
futari massugu ni hokou Yeah

TRANSLATION:

Sadly, sadly I burst into tears at the thought of becoming
However, the tears not shed are only for the strong team

I wonder why my crying is important in your eyes, I see it reflected there
Sunbeams streaming through leaves shine by the window
Why have you become kinder as you’ve gotten older?

The heart has a hidden beat, hidden beat
Always in that way
I don’t understand why the hardships don’t stop

I want to laugh, I want to laugh in the mind’s center
You are expressing your feelings
You try to be tough, I am faint of heart
Yesterday’s talk was the same, but it’s a good thing forever
I will love you because of this forever
It’s my intention to walk with you, and have a drink with your skill yeah!

The seasonal occasion left only me behind
The important person will lead the way, right?

I search for you, I search for you
However, what kind of time should I continue searching for you?
It’s a mystery, because of you; can you explain why?

Sadly, sadly I burst into tears at the thought of becoming
If I hold you close, which one’s heart will come to an end first?

Ah, I want to laugh, I want to laugh
What also might fall, causing you to break up with me?
Yesterday’s talk and tomorrow’s conversation
A couple’s future is an armful, careful not to cut the whole
Getting to do this is the promise, that is good
A couple walks straight ahead yeah!

i don't need my life .

stlah gw pikir" .
gw gga butuh hdup gw =="
tp gw jg nda mw qlo bnuh diri * orang autis yg nda mw idup tp nda mw jg bunuh diri ==" *
gw au mkir kea gni jg gga boleh .
tp mo gmn lagi ?
gw uda sangad CAPE .
bwt terus idup d dunia yg kea gni .
gw uda merasa pwas .
uda dpt kesendirian .
tmen gw uda puna tmen lain . n gw rasa dy uda gga btuh gw .
gw gga punya sapa" . :DD .
qlo gga ada gw nci gw jg hdup lbih tenang ..
God just give me one wish ..
i want a happines ..
i want my life get better ..
i want i can be a better person ..
gw tau itu hrus gw lakuin sndiri bwt dpt itu smua .
tapi gw jg gga tw cra na ..
gw uda brusaha tp org nda perna ngeliad usaha gw ..
apakah gw msi pantes idup kea gni ?
gw rasa enggk .
dri gw kecil mpe skrang ..
yg nma na temen slalu aja bermasalah ma gw .
kpn gw bsa idup tenang coba ?
kpn smua org bsa ngerti gw ?
knp tiap gw butuh mreka , mrka malah ninggalin gw gtu aja ?
apa gw gga ada harga na seperti sampah ?
knp khdupan smp gw malah lebih parah ?
KNP GW GGA BSA HDUP TENANG 1X AJA ?
God .. help me .. T.T

isenk =="

oke skarang gw isenk ==" .
qlo d pikir" ini bkn pertama jg saiia bwt blog . :3
dlu pernah bwt blog .. tpi yh gtu . nma na jg pemula =="
qlo d pikir" yhh . emg gw gga gtu suka nulis sih .
qlo isenk doank n lg bnyk pikiran doank nulis .
emg si ini cmn isenk blaka ==" .
tp dri pd nda bsa d curahin ke sapa" .
mending nulis :3